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So i have not wrote any thing here these few months. Just writing here for fun. I guess? It's trimester break now so I have lots free time. I think I should introduce myself a bit before writing my stories here. I am a 2nd year architecture student. Life is hard for someone who is studying architecture. It's really hard I have to say. I don't have to confidence, I'm not creative, partly I'm a bit of a lazy bum. I just don't know what the lecturer want sometimes. Can creative be train out? Isn't creative should strike comes form inspirational stuff and should take some time to have the quality. Time is just not enough every time. It's so hard it suffocates me sometimes but i just cannot give up. I wish i could but i can't. If i don't finish my degree what will I do for my future? I'll feel guilty to myself and to my family the rest of my life. I'll feel so embarrassed that i didn't archive anything when all my friends have gone overseas study or graduate. Life sucks. I tried my best but it just doesn't work so well for me. I don't know. sigh...